So your looking for this man, and somehow someone knows. This someone finds you.
The cult, self help, or psy-op behavioral study decides to take full advantage.
The persons will pull such stunts as offer to get you or bring you this man.
This will not happen, nor is it the intention, maybe they’d manage a fake.
This may even lead to payment in the form of a gang bang with no actual service rendered.
Yes, they trade this with the very thing you hoped to share with the man you had a longing for.
Not just sex, but your time.
It is also possible they will target such man with Skull to Brain, Remote Neural Monitoring in order to torment him with your mistake.
Services never rendered does still count this as rape, even though you may feel you betrayed this man (both can be true).
They do manipulate with nano bots, static, microwaves, and white noise.

Many cult dynamics or forms do something like this.
It is not bad to feel stupid, it teaches you many things.

Rape by fraud.